So for the longest time, more than likely my entire life, I have struggled with the virtue of patience. I hate waiting. I hate sitting on my hands. But due to circumstances I am being forced to be patient. I had to be patient to get my license back. I have to be patient with this waiting list for this apartment. I’m guessing there is some lesson in all of this but I really ain’t in the mood. I just want things to be back in my control, back on my terms. I’m in a hole and it seems like I’m never going to get to the top anytime soon. Maybe it isn’t meant for me to reach the top right now. But like I said, I don’t want to hear that shit. It’s all out of my control. So I have to sit down and shut up until my spaceship comes. AND I FUCKIN HATE IT!! I don’t know how many times I can say that. I want to always be in control and I cannot control some cosmic timeframe. I guess I should find some positivity in being still. It’s just hard when you abhor every moment that you are not where you want to be. Frankly, it sucks. Slow and steady wins the race but I’m trying to make moves like the rabbit.
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