For as long as I can remember, I have had the hardest time “letting go”. I am actually a potential hoarder. Well, I know for sure that I am an emotional hoarder. But I cannot seem to part with old clothes, teddy bears, mail, shopping bags, pictures, and even deceased family and friends. I have the hardest time dealing with death. Oh, and let me not forget to mention breakups. Although I know that I no longer have use for these old things, and death is a part of life, I cannot and will not accept it. I am a grown ass woman with a huge Carebear that I was given in high school. It sits in a corner and collects dust along with the Victoria’s Secret bag and Bvlgari bag sitting on my dresser. Even now while writing this, I have absolutely no intentions of getting rid of said things. As far as “letting go” of the deceased, that’s just something that I will have to learn to cope with. That’s natural. But the real issue or the one that I am most concerned with is my inability to let go of failed relationships. I keep hanging on in hopes that one day it will work out, but I know damn well it never will. I continue to love and love and love even when the feeling is one-sided. I can see all the signs and know a guy is no good for me, but oh no, he has to remain in my life. For what? I swear I am the cause of my own turmoil sometimes. Wasting time and love on undeserving men. I am almost thirty now. I KNOW better. So I am trying my hardest to stand firm and refuse to keep emotional baggage in my life. Honestly, it is not healthy. I need to let go of those nonproductive relationships to open myself up for a relationship that is fulfilling and worth the effort. All of this is easier said than done, but it is something that I work towards everyday. Maybe once I am able to get rid of these dead end relationships, I can focus on maybe getting rid of the dusty bears and bags in my home.
Yours Truly
Kaz
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